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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 03:55

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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So whats the point in blame.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Whenever I write a novel, I struggle with the end, should I make it open? Should the good win or the bad win? Sometime I don't even have an ending, what should I do?

As i do to all so called friends.?

It was going to be , some day.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Is it okay for a wife who comes home from a date to tell her husband what she did?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

All the time i was locked up.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Im still living with it.

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Comes on , in middle age.

I was scared of men, in general

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She married twice! .

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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I was seconnd youngest,

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why do I sweat between my legs all the time, top off my legs, all way down?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Who then, do I blame.?

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

So, i spoilt her more .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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I write beautiful poetry .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She found it foreign!.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I never cut or harmed myself..

He knew the spot.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We all went to grammer schools

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

(And it was in our own minds.)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Ive learnt so much.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She wouldn,t have been !

I will be 64.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She was in good health!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was very sick at this time too.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But ive been too sick for many years..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I couldn’t, believe it.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

When she asked me how she looked .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Would this be the day?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But, we were locked up after school.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One cannot live in the past .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I was 9 years of age.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I don,t even have a pension.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We were not on the streets..

My life is so biszare .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Especially a lifetime of it.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I think the readers, may guess!

And i lived it daily.

What did i know ?

I have no regrets .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I could never make a relationship work though!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I said to her

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

This is soul school!.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She loved him until the end.

I waited trembling.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Put me off passion for life!!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But it wasn’t much.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other